Why did Trump win? My theory

We need to own up to how we made this happen, shatter the image of us being innocent and always in the right.

When this question is asked, the answers are many and contradictory.

Some say the third party voters.

Others, the ones that didn’t vote.

Others blame the electoral college, or say that it was just the fault of Trump voters.

Some very special people say that we didn’t address the issues of the poor disenfranchised white people who voted for Trump (that’s never going to fly with me. He built his campaign on hatred of all the Outcast, talked more about his hatred than he did his policies…they might not like the system as it was, but neither did I…that’s not an excuse for voting for someone that only articulated his hatred…especially with all that I mentioned in Wait and see? Really? happening).

I have a different thought though.

Trump shouldn’t have won, and he and his hatred shouldn’t have got that far into the race in the first place.

Why did it?

It’s not the left, the right, the third parties…it’s us.

Hatred grows if it’s unchallenged, and as a society we didn’t do that.

When people uttered homophobic slurs, we said they had the right to their opinion.

When people made racist remarks, we told ourselves that maybe they had a reason for their bigotry, as if anything could actually justify it.

We didn’t stand as one against transphobic bathroom bills.

When black people were trying to call out and show that according to this system their lives didn’t matter, as shooting after shooting was recorded as undeniable evidence that this was happening, that black people were being killed by cops without just cause and when white people can get out from jail after 6 months for rape, we created movements that said all lives matter and closed our ears and eyes to all that evidence to the contrary when it comes to the system and how it treats different races.

We put less of a focus on over ten women coming forward saying that he sexually assaulted them and he said he feels it’s fine to do that if you’re rich (basically, a he said/she said the exact same thing) than on his opponent’s emails.

…and you ignored when he over and over repeated the myth of us autistics being vaccine-injured, called us “doctor-inflicted”, a narrative that considers us subhuman and broken.

We did these things over and over. We as a people may not have said the hateful remarks, but not challenging it, letting it grow by saying it’s an opinion not hate, defending their remarks, telling defenders of truth to back off (something I have done and regret), is just as bad as actually spreading it yourself. If you don’t stand up to injustice you’re complicit in it.

In our lack of vigilance and combat of this hatred, it festered and grew until it became the President. Now that he’s elected, we must do better. We need to combat the hateful and protect the Outcast under threat, actually act against the hatred with our words and our feet, they are now actually attacking people countrywide in large numbers. We didn’t rise up then, but we need to now.

-Laoch Onórach

Tell Me I’m Exaggerating (CW: Inhuman hatred towards autistics, eugenics, swearing)


My feelings after dealing with this conversation

(Yes, I did mention eugenics and hatred of autistics…if you’re autistic you may not want to continue…everyone else, keep going)


This is eugenics. This is literally saying that scientific progress will lead to my kind no longer existing. In Nazi Germany and in the US first, disabled people were sterilized to prevent us from spreading our genes, and during the holocaust autistic kids were slaughtered…this vile woman wants that again.

I’m done.

So fucking done.

I have avoided calling the Alt Right and the people doing the hate crimes countrywide that I mentioned in Wait and see? Really? what they are in situations where I wanted to have some remnant of that acceptable activist shtick that I put on to be heard, been articulate so you don’t have to listen.

It’s the tone I had in We are not, the article I linked that I wrote to dispel the myths about my neurology. I kept it when I wrote the latest article for that autistic blog, Disability is politics, especially now (and will continue for that blog, I’m a guest on it after all).

I even managed it in Wait and see, managing to avoid calling the alt right what they are while mentioning salutes, swastikas, and Sieg Heils.

They’re Nazis, and I don’t know how the hell people can actually say otherwise. That comment thread was left on The forgotten history of autism, a TED Talk by Steve Silberman, a friend and the author of the autistic history book Neurotribes, which I reviewed here. In that book he describes, in such painful detail that I had to stop reading for a bit and other autistics just stopped completely, what atrocities happened to my little brothers and sisters in the Holocaust, solely for being autistic. My method of recovering from that shock enough to be able to go back was listening to Tragedy + Time by Rise Against, a song that promises that we all will learn to laugh again.

Now? I’m seeing the same exact attitudes that led to that vileness having a resurgence and it’s utterly terrifying and enraging, and the thing that makes it all more enraging is the people ignoring the reality that we’re living in.

That comment, a comment on an informative humanizing speech about autistics, came from someone who hopes that people like myself eventually will be aborted before we enter the world. A very good autistic friend of mine endured a 45 minute phone call of utter hatred ( he was in total shock) from someone who he thought was close to him told him “This world is too good for an Autistic Fuck like you to exist in.” He no longer feels safe going outside because he has no idea who is like that person…and frankly I can’t blame him.

This is after we elected a President who considers us broken and damaged by vaccines, who elected as his chief strategist someone who said “I’ve got a cure for mental health issue[s]…Spank your children more,” who says he’s going to appoint as Attorney General someone who said the laws protecting disabled students in schools “may be the single most irritating problem for teachers throughout America today” and said they are “a big factor in accelerating the decline in civility and discipline in classrooms all over America.”

We Outcast are experiencing this regime of utter hatred, of people telling us we shouldn’t exist and the world is too good for us to be in it, people saying that the march of progress will involve the prevention of my kind from ever being born, and we’re being told that we’re exaggerating when we call this regime Nazis. When they advocate for eugenics, spraypaint swastikas, make salutes saying Sieg heil, and use Nazi slurs on the press (the thing I didn’t mention in my previous article unlike all the others).

Tell me that I’m exaggerating when someone straight up tells me that in the future people like myself will be aborted.

I’m done pretending to be anywhere near ok with a world that seems to be echoing Nazi Germany far too well, and I’m done pretending to be fine with people who deny it. We need to stand up to this hatred together, and the first step is calling these people what they are by the virtue of their actions.

And yes, that is Nazis, and to be able to ignore that reality is starting to seem like deliberate ignorance of the world that is going up in flames around us.

I don’t have time for people who ignore that anymore, I’m too busy trying to help others affected, aiming to unite us in my rage/activism group The Outcast Army, and dealing with a world which is making it rather clear that it doesn’t feel like I belong in it.

-Laoch Onórach

Wait and see? Really?


First post for The Outcast Post, addressing a reply to our anger and emotion that is getting on my nerves…to wait and see.

I assume when I hear this that they have to be totally ignorant of what is happening.

That’s the only way to reconcile their telling us to wait and see or to give him a chance.

I realize that they might mean “wait to see what happens when he’s in full control,” but we don’t need to wait to see the effects of a Trump presidency. We don’t need to wait because we’re seeing everything around us.

We’re seeing Islamic books defaced with hateful imagery.

(Swastikas and slurs in a place where they thought they were safe from such hatred…nowhere is.)

We’re seeing ASL speakers getting told “This is White America now. Take your retarded self and go somewhere else. Trump is president now.”

(This is just one example…I have heard multiple friends in the disability community talk about experiences they’ve had making my disability is politics article more relevant.)

We’re seeing 8 year old black kids being told to “go back to the cotton farm” and beaten up.

(Frankly, it’s concerning that that’s even part of these children’s vocabulary for insulting minorities.)

We’re seeing letters with death threats and racial slurs sent to minority families.

(Near the end of the article it says “While Trump has vaguely asked his supporters to “stop” the hate crimes, his appointing of Steve Bannon — known for his anti-Semitic and white supremacist leanings — as his chief strategist is a troubling sign of what’s to come.” More info on that insanity below.)

We’re seeing him appoint a white supremacist anti-Semite as a chief strategist who pretty much said he looks up to Darth Vader and Satan:

“Darkness is good,” says Bannon, who amid the suits surrounding him at Trump Tower, looks like a graduate student in his T-shirt, open button-down and tatty blue blazer — albeit a 62-year-old graduate student. “Dick Cheney. Darth Vader. Satan. That’s power. It only helps us when they” — I believe by “they” he means liberals and the media, already promoting calls for his ouster — “get it wrong. When they’re blind to who we are and what we’re doing.”

(I can’t believe he said that either…when he appoints someone like that do you really think he’s committing to peace? It also doesn’t matter…the hatred will persist, Pandora’s Box isn’t easily closed.)

We saw him choose a VP who supports conversion therapy.

(Click on the link. Read the utter horror it represents. That’s something that I fear we will see…even if we don’t, the hatred that represents won.)

We saw a 35 year old autistic woman kill herself because “She felt that she could no longer live in a world where bigotry and hatred prevail, where so many are bullied, shunned, and marginalized.”

(I shall mourn her loss and fight this world in her name. May whatever Gods there may be take you in, Lara Margaret Nicole Helmer. You were too good for this world.)

We’ve seen this guy who said he’d defeat ISIS get upset about unflattering pictures and his VP getting booed at Hamilton, demanding an apology even when his VP said that he wasn’t offended and “that’s what freedom sounds like.”

(Trump also hilariously claimed that theater should be a safe space, an oft derided [by people like himself quite often] concept of an area where a marginalized group can be free from thoughtless and intentional bigotry. It’s hilarious because theater, especially a play such as Hamilton, isn’t meant to be a safe space for ideas like theirs. It’s a place that challenges those beliefs and notions, not one that will embrace them.)

We’ve seen a party in an Italian restaurant literally doing the Nazi salute and saying Seig (sic) Heil.

(It’s actually Sieg Heil, but apparently Tila couldn’t spell it properly, adding insult to injury.)

And we have seen many, many, many reports of violence beyond this countrywide.

(Each link links to a list of attacks that have been happening…a lot, and they don’t all match, hence linking to three.)

We have seen all of this, and we’re not waiting to act. We’re not going to give chance after chance after chance, not going to accept this as normal. We’re being attacked, and we’re not going to wait to be victims.

We don’t have a choice.

-Laoch Onórach